What's on my plate

I keep forgetting to record what I'm eating.  I started this blog as a way of keeping track of my journey and keep forgetting to include my food intake and a more detailed account of my exercise.  I want to be able to look back on it as a resource, a place where I can see what worked, what didn't, when I struggled, what I found easy.  Anyway, the above is my lunch which consisted of a small amount of chicken breast in cajun seasoning, lettuce, tomato and my homemade mango salsa, all in a wholemeal wrap and washed down with a small banana smoothie. The smoothie was made with 1/2 banana, skim milk and a dollop of greek yoghurt.  Yummo!

In the interests of being backwards (and not being bothered fiddling with the order of my images), here is what went on for breakfast.... I had steel cut oats - seen on right in the following image.  Basically it is the form the oats take before Uncle Toby's and other companies get their hands on them and process them until they look like the more common oats in the bowl at left.  I tried the steel cut after reading that they were higher in fibre, beneficial oils and had greater health benefits than 'regular' oats.  I quite like them although they take longer to cook.  I soak them overnight in water with a bit of keffir in it and then cook it on the stove when I'm ready for it the next morning. The steel cut oats have a nuttier taste and are not as fluffy as regular oats once cooked. 

I eat the oats with about a tablespoon of maple syrup (or maple flavoured syrup in this case), about 4 nuts cut up - usually walnuts or pecans. They provide good essential oils and extra protein to the meal. I then lightly sprinkle with cinnamon.  No, I've not forgotten milk. I eat it without and it's fine.

My weight is still coming off oh-so-slowly, at a rate that matches my thyroid and my motivation I suppose.  I've been really happy with how I've been exercising daily and eating well 90% of the time with NO MOTIVATION. None, zip, nada.  I've tried to have the mind set that I eat well and exercise daily simply because that's what I do. I'm not making good food choices, using healthy eating habits and exercising because I want to lose weight, because I'm dieting or any other reason other than the fact that this is the standard of behaviour I've set for myself.  I want these behaviours to be habits like cleaning my teeth - it's just what I do regardless of whether or not I'm motivated or happy or have the energy. I do the Nike and JUST DO IT.  This is how I thought and lived my life pre-illness and I've sort of been back in that zone these past few weeks. I've stopped focussing on Weight Watchers points, what I should be doing, overthinking and have just got in and taken action.  I'm not deluding myself into thinking that I've suddenly mastered all of my problems but if I can continue like this and string successful days, weeks and months together I really feel like I'll be heading back into familiar territory.  Territory where I existed as a healthy, fit, active person with healthy eating habits and control over my weight.  It's been a long time since I lived in that place but at least I can now see it in the distance again.

I think I'm coping much better and being more consistent because my thyroid medication is 'right' at present.  I've been on my new dosage for about 4 weeks now and I'm actually feeling rather well. Finger's crossed I continue to chuff along feeling so good and DON'T spin into hyperthyroidism again (as I usually do when medicated with thyroxine).  If I can maintain this level of wellbeing I really feel that I can make some significant steps towards reclaiming much of the lifestyle I was forced to leave behind 12 years ago (God has it been that long?), not to mention the aspects of myself  such as my vibrancy and bubbly nature which faded to nothingness during this time. They'll be friends well met when I am reunited with them again.